friday love

today is friday. a really good friday despite winter's persistence. the boys are beautiful. owen sick with the runs. hit world's fair for a sprinkle donut en route to the library (ies). tried 3 before we got in, and then had fines and no cash so we just read there before coming home for naps. looked in the emotional mirror last night...bleak. i have so much work to do. thankfully my boys and husband are the truest reasons for improvement i've known. beautiful people. they deserve a mom who is positive and balanced. eli needs me to change, especially, from the intensely corrective mom i've become into a supporter and reinforcer. i put him in the pressure cooker every day and turn it up every time he makes a move. and he's a soft one. permeable. tender.
we watched an old time cartoon of gulliver's travels tonight. clearly a product of quirky socal in the 50s or 60s. sure beats ben 10 and rainbow bright.
loving the low key moments of this day. encouraging the freedom of these small people is among my life's greatest goals...someday achievements.
praying for humility and confidence, love and gentleness, health for my loved ones.
this month's best work so far: gramsie's pedicure and her flower pots.